Now I know my A,B,C's...

In kindergarten we're taught the letters of the alphabet...we learn that when we put some letters together we can form words....what we're not taught is the great power you have once you do that....you're not told right away that with those words... you have the power to lift someone's spirits....change someone's life....or..even break someone's heart....with just a mere few words....words...some as simple as love...or hate...both of which have only four letters....only four letters of the twenty-six that your taught in kindergarten...can affect someone else's whole world...if just one word...as small as those two can do so much....just think about what a sentence can do.....someone once said..." The pen is mightier than the sword "...that quote rains true... for the words we create with the pen can be just as sharp as a sword. Remember...
" Knowledge is power " and " With power comes great responsibility."

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" Read any good books lately?" I must have seen that line in at least three different movies...wait...don't quote me on that...and... as a matter of fact don't ask what movies cause I sure as hell can't remember...the point is I've heard it..and the great part is NO ONE ever asks that...ever...and if they do...you politely answer them then walk away thinking..omg...that was strange...I've always seen that happen in a movie... but not in real life...AHH HAA see...but now I'm going to ask that...have you? Because if you are a new mom or someone wanting to be a new mom...you totally have to read...Jenny McCarthy's Baby Laughs...it's the sequel to Belly Laughs which I will also recommend. Anyway...there is a chapter called " WWW.ismybabydevelopingproperly.com" In this chapter she goes on about how she would constantly check up on what milestone he is at..or should be at...etc..and in her own funny sarcastic way helps us new mom relax when it comes to that stuff...and frankly I've had to read that chapter a few times..to keep my mind at ease....
My little love...literally just turned nine months ..he's getting so big so fast....but...I can't help but get nervous about what he's not yet doing...ok ...let me rephrase that...not nervous...but aware of...like for example...in my second post I wrote about looking at other babies and comparing...and I'm starting to do that again..I know it's not healthy..and there is certainly nothing wrong with my son...I just can't help but think about it once in awhile...ok...he's hasn't grasped the sippy cup idea yet...he's getting there...but not mastered...it...he's not crawling...well forward that is...doing an awesome job at the whole backwards jig...and yes..I know.."They start off backwards..that means he'll be doing it in no time" yeah I know that..I've read that...I've even seen that..but it doesn't change that fact that he's not...he's not eating puffs in fact he freaks when we put one near his mouth.. ...gags on pieces of soft carrots....and the thing is...and this should be self explanatory ...I don't blame him...I blame myself...am I doing something wrong? ...But then I gather myself back together and realize that he is perfectly normal and every baby has his or her own time-line..and frankly there is a reason Jenny McCartney wrote that chapter....yeah hello...nuts like me...in the end...I realize how wonderful he is...how everything he does still to this day amazes me...and I think about how something this special came from us...and when he says mama for the first time..it will be a magical moment...no matter WHEN he says it...

Why do I always do this?

OK it has been WAY too long since I last posted...I don't know what my problem is...I always have great intentions on writing...I've always gotten excited about getting a new diary or what not...but it always ends up the same way..I get all excited...I start...and then....slowly....but...surly..it sloooows down to a complete stop....UGH...I really don't know why I'm so surprised..it's the story of my life....tons on unfinished business....

Oh well...I'll write a better post tomorrow...I promise....